math paper

phew today's math paper2 wasn't so bad...managed to do the stuff, with not so many careless mistakes...at least i hope! then there's this notorious question 27...haha hope i did it right, but oh well...its over...yes A level Math is over!!!

although math'll probably still be with me for a long time, cos its a necessary evil for physics and electronics. if only one day, i'd discover a hidden talent in maths! that'll sure help me...but i see no sign of mathematical intuition inside me though...argh talent...i guess excessive self doubt forces any talent into hiding! but its gonna take a while b4 i regain that elusive self-confidence...its not easy after all, to recover from 2 yrs of trauma and stress and depression and loss of mental ability and then the post-traumatic stress...argh and the bipolar maniac depression syndrom...goodness it gets worse the more i say it!!

i've got abt 6 days of exam left. I've not covered my Bio option topic adequately, which is so crucial bcos i've screwed up the main paper BIG TIME. But i'll do one topic at a time, per day...
then there's physics! i'm gonna finish covering it, but i wont know if i can do well until i get some practice, and the problem is getting it done fast! That'll be the priority tmr.

Started reading up on string theory yesterday...hmm after a really long time, i'm back how i first started: reading layman nonmathematical accounts of string theory. Last time it was quantum theory...but even now i'm thinking of going back and reading a couple more accounts of quantum theory, just for fun...as for the math, well i'm hoping to get past the expansion postulate and stuff...and then perhaps start learning more math so i can really understand and do the stuff...there's so much to learn, its gonna be fun!