another misc post

i've got lots of stuff on the active project that i'm working on, which is the faster and cheaper circuit fabrication method project. i'm very very eager to get rid of it, because its been a chronic pain in the ass for about four years. The completion of the project, while long overdue, is closing in before me. i hope i don't get stunned by new problems along the way...its very taxing on me and my mind is just picking up from the military-induced brain paralysis.

its interesting how things just come to you by sheer chance. i was waiting for my mum to pick me up at the hdb block opposite Eunos MRT station, in a general state of worried thought (the most chronic way of mental suffering), when i saw a double decker bus bearing an advertisement for Denso spark plugs...sth like "better performance with sharper, iridium tips". bingo! less than an hour ago i was writing on my notebook on the train, hoping for something very sharp and withstands the extreme heat of a spark. THAT was it!!!

I could get myself one of those spark plugs, but i think its pretty expensive, and that'll not be too economical because its actually the fine tip that i'm looking for...i'll just snip off that tip and throw away the rest...(into my junk store of course...you never know when you need to scavenge sth from it. engineers don't live in a perfect world, so they shouldn't expect to fabricate perfect stuff with their perfect CnC machines in their perfect university labs all the time. to do so, one would die of complications from impatience.)

earlier today i thought i'd use a fountain pen for the zapping eraser ('zaperaser'). (explanations of what the hell this thing is will come later when the documentation on the project will be published here.) After the double-decker bus revelation, i remembered seeing fountain pens advertised on tv..."iridium tips, osmium tips, punctures a drink can without a scratch!..."

time to hunt for stuff again. woah stress leh...

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i was pretty upset with someone today. i've been for much of the time for the past months, and i think the feeling is mutual. sometimes i think i'd rather cease trying to communicate with him. its difficult to get a clear and satisfactory answer to the questions i ask him, and they are usually about getting instructions for work and other work issues. i hate being given a cold shoulder when i'm trying to inquire about what i'm taking seriously. after all its only to the benefit of the rest that we pack up early.

i have a confidence problem, and it prevents me from dealing with people as directly as i wish to, though the tongue in my head is ever so sharp, my mouth is too tame to convey those thoughts. it pisses me off that i have to cope with this...at the same time i think its just a useless waste of effort to try to get anything out of him.

damnation! the monkey of VJC has met his match at last...vain cosmetic attempts to be imposive and domineering. worse, add to that arrogance, kuai lan, insolence.

thankfully i shall bid some stubborn pain good riddance.